I was blog-hopping today and I came across a blog of a girl who had to break up with her boyfriend of 20 months just coz she was leaving for the US to further her studies. Both she & her boyfriend have blogs... and they poured out their feelings there..

After reading both, I couldn't stop my tears from flowing.. I know it sounds stupid but it wasn't just reading the blogs that made me cry. I have the tendency to put myself in people's shoes especially in these kinda situations. I just can't imagine how it would be when I have to leave ... Leave to further my studies, leave home, leave my boyfriend, leave my friends, leave EVERYTHING. I'll only have my suitcases with me. Meaningless suitcase!

It suddenly struck me that I most probably will be leaving early next year. And if 2005 can just fly past us, why wouldn't 2006? I just cannot imagine. Cannot. No. Not happening.

I was thinking about it the whole day and tears occasionally filled my eyes. I've never had a long-distance relationship.. I wouldn't know if I can handle it. If we have to break up, its gonna shatter my heart. If we do stay together, my heart would still ache from missing him. After 2 years together, I just can't drop everything and fly off. I know its easier said than done. God, give me the strength I need! And to think that I cannot come back whenever I want to just pierces my heart even more...

Dear God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can, and,
the wisdom to know the difference.